I really do have one. Recently I became addicted to podcasts. I am listening mainly to knittting podcasts as well as some liberal media podcasts, since there doesn’t seem to be a way to get any real (read liberal) news other than NPR. I have found a few knitting podcasts that I really like, some that I haven’t had a chance to listen to yet, and one that I am not really sure I like. Now mind you I have listened to 35 episodes of the one I am not really sure that I like. I feel like I am supposed to like her, most knitters like her and the podcasters I really like LOVE her. I keep listening, not only do I keep listening but I actually force myself to listen by not allowing myself to listen to the one I really like until I have caught up with the one I don’t really like. You should also not here that each of the not so liked podcasts is approximately an hour long, of course I fast forward through most of the music so it takes me approximately 30 minutes or so to listen to each one, but with 35 under my belt that is 17.5 hours of my life I won’t get back. To be fair, usually I am doing something else while listening like walking, metroing, or working but still I could be listenting to the one I really like because there are 40 of them I haven’t listened to yet or I could be listening to one of the 20 that I haven’t yet tried, but no I force myself to listen to the one that doesn’t really appeal to me.
Why do I feel the need to do this? Is this a good quality? One you would call discipline? Or is it a form of self-torture? Is it my way of telling myself I don’t deserve the good stuff until I deal with the bad stuff first? Like no dessert until vegetables?
While the answers to these questions are important, right now I must be off to catch up on some podcasts. I think I am going to give her 5 more episodes and then if I am really sure I don’t like it, I just skim the rest.
